The Apocalyptic Chronicles of Ciwey


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Simon Curtis
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本來都打算早啲瞓.
不過我啱啱係堅唔開心咗.
到最後我都係飲咗淨低嗰支酒.
一支可能唔算多, 不過空肚飲醉得快亦散得快.
情緒亦好快出晒嚟.

又唔係無端端嘅.
飲咗酒已經灰灰地.
聽聽下歌突然嚟首小學聽到依家嘅 What About Me.
嗰下係真係好唔開心.
唔開心到咸嗰隻.
對上一次唔開心到流眼淚應該都係成莊嗰晚.

覺得唔公平.
明明責任一齊負, 偏偏只有自己要作捨棄.
明明大家都有義務, 偏偏自己要為大局取捨.
更覺得唔公平嘅係
點解企得喺呢個位就一定要作犧牲?

唔明白
點解情緒化就係軟弱?
點解隱藏情感就係堅強?
為大局著想?
某師兄講的.
做甚麼 post 都是人.
為甚麼不可以有自己的意欲?

要為顧全大局而自己難受.
大局還算是顧全了嗎?
還不是有人不高興.
差別在自己還是別人而已.

也許整件事跟本是 red herring.
或者是 strawman.
氣憤的失落的根本與大局無關.
根本不是再氣別人, 是在氣上天.
為何把自己放到這個兩邊都不好受的 dilemma?

說甚麼任性夠了就不要再重滔覆轍.
洩露情感就是任性?
有苦自己知就是懂事?
顧及自己感受就是自我中心?

這是甚麼道理.
全世界都把自己的不開心事藏在心底.
這就算是顧全大局?
這就算是為大家好?
裝作甚麼都沒事就是完美的 status quo?

喜怒哀樂都要顧全大局.
假裝沒有情感沒有意向
這還算是甚麼.

說這麼多廢話.
要工作終究是要工作的.
不滿的聲浪兩邊都湧來了.

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brb capping my open tabs.

American Idol Pic Spam, featuring Alexis Grace and Ricky Braddy.
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Louisville Auditions
a.k.a. Where It All Began

By some incredible yet ultimately pointless coincidence, both Alexis and Ricky auditioned at Freedom Hall in Louisville for American Idol. This is also where we meet the male and female protagonists of this pic spam.

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